Yesterday I was supposed to be celebrating a friend’s birthday. Instead I am mourning his death. Bryan was a very close friend, I met him during freshman orientation and we became friends fast. We were facebook married until I “divorced” him cause I didn’t want people to think we were actually married. I really don’t know how to go on acting normal and living life normally. It feels so unreal, I still can’t comprehend it. I don’t want to believe it. I don’t see it getting any easier.